Tuesday, January 09, 2007

excuses

Why I did not make a list of my favourite albums and songs of the year, with or without intelligent descriptions: I only bought four CDs, and only two of them were actually released in 2006.

Why I did not make a list of the best books I read in 2006: I read 94 books, not counting poetry and textbooks and theory and the ones I forgot to write down. 36 of these books scored highly in my complicated reviewing system. How can I possibly winnow it down?

Why I did not make a list of the worst books I read in 2006: I already complained about The Concrete Garden and I am vaguely embarrassed to admit that I read some of the other really rank books.

Why I did not make any new year resolutions: I prefer to make resolutions on my birthday. It's more meaningful for me. Also, I am feeling awfully hazy about my future and my goals -- not that this is a bad thing! It isn't bad at all! Better to feel nebulous than to cling rigidly to ideas about The Way Things Must Be. Being hazy suits me just fine right now.

2 comments:

mrschili said...

What's the difference between an "excuse" and a "reason"? All of these sound more like reasons to me.

You're right - sometimes being hazy and flexible is a good thing. When is your birthday, by the way?

feather said...

Excuses imply guilt, and I have a lot of latent Catholic tendencies indoctrinated into my personality from early childhood. I rarely feel like giving reasons; I always feel too vaguely guilty for them to be anything but excuses.